Beta Day

I went for my blood test this morning. When the alarm went off I did not want to get out of bed to face this day. Perhaps I should be excited but I am more fearful. I have been teary all morning. Now I am at work. I know I said I would work from home today but plans change. Because of the apartment situation I had to work from home yesterday to view some apartments. So I am in the office today. I think it is probably better this way. More of a distraction.

My co-worker that is aware that I am in the middle of this process brought me flowers today. How sweet is that?! It is a nice reminder that people are in my corner and cheering me on whatever the outcome.

D and I decided we would wait and get the news together. So, I will be home for the news be it good or bad. As soon I receive the news I will post here with the results.

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I am updating to post. I am PREGNANT.I am in shock. This new was totally unexpected.I totally blew the agreement with D. I missed the call so the voicemail was there and I just kept staring at the phone. D's boss was in town so he was having a very busy day at work. I tried to reach him to listen to the message together. I just had to hear that message. He could not talk. So, I contemplated for about a second before I flipped that phone open and pressed 1 talk to dial VM. My nurse Sue on the other end sounded happy. And I thought as she was speaking the words .." I am calling today to tell you you are PREGNANT!" Oh my goodness. Good news. This worked. My one little embyro made it. He stuck with me and is growing in me right now. I closed the phone. Luckliy for me it was still listed as a new message. I thought I could still listen with D later and that is how he will find out. I ran to my co-workers office closed her door and said for the first time ever I am pregnat. She jumped up we hugged and cried. I was shaking. It is just shocking. We talked for a long while. I came back to my office and just had to listen to the message again. I mean what if I only heard what I wanted to hear. I listened again. Sure enough I am pregnant. My HCG # is 306. I go back on Friday to repeat. Please let this bean stick. Please let that number double.

So, my plan was still to wait until D and I could listen to the message at home but that soon changed. He got tied up at work with the boss in town. We knew this might happen. When D called me on my way home from work and asked my how I was doing I replied Good. It was a little too good of a response. That prompted him to ask if I listened to the message. I could not lie. So D was told over the phone on the way to a meeting with his boss. Not exactly what I imagined in my head but what really ever is.