16 Weeks tomorrow

I will be sixteen weeks tomorrow. These months are going by so quickly(I wonder if I will still be thinking that in month 9). I have my next check up on Monday and it cannot come fast enough. I feel really good. Too good maybe. At least that is what I keep telling myself. I just need some reassurance things with bean are just perfect. I am not feeling movement yet, too early. I no longer feel sick. Other than my inability to get a good nights sleep,physically I really do feel great. Emotionally is a different story. Things at home have been crazy with the stress of having to move, job losses and new baby on the way we have had every major life event there is crammed into a four month period. It has proved to be too much. I worry that the stress of all of it is being felt by bean. I feel just awful about that. I am already failing as a parent. I want to protect bean from the screams and shouts, the stress and feelings of unhappiness. I worry that all if this will do some harm. I am trying really hard to remain calm. To focus on bean and our well-being. All will work out in the end. This is all temporary distractions and disruptions in our lives.

14 weeks 3 days

And all is well. At least I think it is. I have been feeling really well. Just like my old self. It makes me hope that bean is still doing well in the comfort of my well padded belly.

Last week I had the results of my NT Scan and blood work. Without my scan and bloodwork, using just my age, my risk for the bean to have downs is 1:139. With the scan and bloodwork it is 1:1100. This is the same risk for a 25 year old. I rejoiced with the news and we decided we will not do the amnio.

Next appt is at 16 weeks, 3 days. Two weeks from today. After that I think we will have a level 2 U/S at 18 weeks. And we will know if bean is a she bean or a he bean. Exciting stuff.