We saw a heart beat

And I could finally breathe. First I had a transabdominal US and then a transvaginal US. Between the two the US tech to get a Doctor. I was a bit worried. It turned out I gave the wrong date from my retrieval so they thought the babies progress was behind. Thank goodness that was not the case. All is well with bean. His little heart was beating 122 bpm. Right on target. I burst into tears as soon as I saw him. Tears of happiness and relief.

We still have not told anyone. I was tempted to share the news today with my Mom but I was able to hold myself back. I think I would prefer to do that in person. I was with her on Sunday for Mother's Day and that would have been a great day to share the news. But I wanted this US as confirmation there really is a baby in there.

My next US is not for three weeks. I was suppose to be just two but my Doctor is not available. So three it is. I will have the US, meet with my Doctor and be released to a regular OB (which I need to find real soon). I cannot wait to see my baby again.

One week ago today..

I found out I was pregnant. I am not sure the news has sunk it for either of us yet. D is freaking out a bit. He would never say it was about the baby, but I know it is. I think it is normal for men to take care of his family. Even though we both work (and I will continue to do so after the baby) I think he feels that pressure more. So, I just let him roll with it. Me? I am feeling fine. No real symptoms. My breasts are bigger and I am constipated and tire more easily. No morning sickness, do dizzy spells, no metallic taste. I am anxious for the US on Tuesday. Last friday was my last contact with the Doctors office and it has me a bit on edge. I was buying Mother's Day cards today in CVS and almost bought some pregnancy tests to prove to myself I was infact still pregnant. I was able to resist for now. I am not making any promises about tomorrow though. Come on, I still have 5 whole days until the US.

On the housing front it appears we are screwed. We have three and a half weeks to find a place to move. We found one place but decided it was just a ridiculous amount of money for renting. I am so tempted to pack all of things and head to Portland. But no can do with maybe on board. Not yet anyway. If this apartment shit had gone down a few months from now that might have been the plan. Tonight I will be scouring craigslist for a new abode.

840

My HCG number more than doubled. The magic number 840. I could not have been more relived. No more betas for me. Which is slightly terrifying to me. I mean how will I know I am still pregnant? I might have to purchase some pregnancy tests just to make sure. Actually I have never tested positive on one of those suckers so I may buy one just to finally see those two lines. I have an ultrasound on May 13th at 12:45pm. I am so excited to see this little bean. I am praying he picked a good place to implant.

In other pregnancy news... I just had the first annoying person trying to give helpful advice to the pregnant person (I cannot believe this has happened already). After I got the call on the second beta number I decided I would take a trip to the bookstore to view some pregnancy books ( I hope I am not tempting fate here). So I selected two books. While standing in line the Woman in front of me turned and said "that book you have I was not impressed with that book at all. You should really get the book 40 weeks. That book was much better, it has pictures. My husband and I would sit together every Friday and look at what was happening that week. Oh, and congratulations." Are you kidding me? Maybe I am a bit on edge and being a bit harsh but I was annoyed that she invaded my personal space about something I consider very personal.

I am off to search for a new place to live.

Beta x 2

Today I reported to the hospital again to have blood drawn. Beta test number two. We are hoping the numbers double as they should. The magic number is 612. It is 10:30 am. On wednesday they called at 11:30 with my results. I am hoping for the same today. Please let those numbers double. I have not told anyone else. Surprisingly D and I have not even talked much about it. I think we are both to cautious to start making plans. I am not sure when we will tell. Maybe after we see the heartbeat or maybe not until the 2nd trimester.

I am trying to make sure that I although I am scared that I still enjoy every moment of this experience. I have almost no symptoms. The only one is being tired. I yawn throughout the day. No morning sickness, no sore breasts (they may be a bit bigger).

Okay- I need to go do some work.