This has been a week of gut-wrenching, head-banging, foot-stomping, head-shaking (possibily life changing) screaming matches. Do I? Do we? What do we do now? The answers escape us both. We have resolved nothing but we are too exhausted to continue talking about. It takes a lot of work to be angry at the one you love. All that work and still no revalations. Maybe in the middle of this silent limbo we will discover our answers. We covered the gamut from sharing household chores, friends, to the biggy; Kids. They have been a source of many "conversations" over the last three years. It was never a question of whether we wanted them, we do (I think we still do, but there was a large pronouncement somewhere in the middle of one of those knock down, drag out doosies the was meant to make me think otherwise). But WHEN??!!! The when is hard. Especially when it comes to us. It has been proven that we are a wee bit challenged in that arena. The "when" when you are us is more involved. As in medical intervention. Hey I understand the hestitation. Having kids is a bit of leap of faith. When you know exactly what lies ahead to enable you to have them it gives you more think to think. So, we thinking too much these days. Maybe we should move back out west before we have kids. I think I should get a new job before we have kids........ We should have $xxxxx in the bank before we have kids. Don't get me wrong having kids is BIG. Very Big. And asking ourselves all those questions can be good. But. There will always be reasons not to do it. But the reasons to do it our bigger and better.
But I am wondering should we move? You do not know us yet but you will soon discover that we move. It is what we do. Avoidance and distractions. It just might be our answer. Resist. Resist.
A big shout out to my big black furry cuteness who very generously kept me company during this long dark week. Thank you for all your kisses.
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